Looking forward

Sitting in this familiar spot at my desk on the sixth floor of this dorm, I can't help but look back at this year and reflect on the things that God has done for me and to me. Let me tell you, this has been a roller coaster of a year. I've been in numerous situations where I didn't know how to feel, respond, think, or even how to listen to God- situations I never thought I'd be in before. Sparing you the details, I will just say that He is good and sovereign and knows me better than I know myself!

That being said, He deserves so much! God is always faithful. He is always faithful. He is always faithful. I can't say it enough. He is faithful. I can't believe His faithfulness when I have been so unfaithful. Sometimes I like to think about what my life would be like had I never decided to give my life to Him and trust in Him, and the things I think about make me so thankful. Every decision I've made, every conflict I've been in, every relationship I have- they are all centered on what will please Him. Hearing that does not sound like fun or like freedom, two things every human being wants and thinks they deserve. But listening to Him and putting Him first has given me so much liberty and peace in this life. I cannot do without that. It makes me thankful for His guidance and love I could never understand.

One thing I heard earlier this year that I have clutched on to all year was this short poem:

Thou art coming before the King
Great petitions to Him bring,
For His strength and power are such
That you could never ask too much.

I could never ask too much of Him. After all, He is King, and I am a daughter of the King and He wants to give me every good thing! Could I ask for more? I don't think it's possible!!

Anyways, I could sit in this bare room that has nothing left in it from this year- just the things I need to get me through until I move out- and think that I have nothing to show for this year, but I can't let that happen. I am forgetting what is past and looking forward and going toward the prize for which I have been called upward! Let me tell you, that prize is HUGE, and it's worth every bit of this vapor of a life on earth.

This may have been a rant, but that doesn't matter because nobody blogs anymore and probably doesn't read this. I'm looking forward to many things: going overseas, moving into an awesome house, having a great new job, and other things. I have no idea what to expect, which is the best situation to be in, because He is taking care of me. I will leave you with this great quote that I hope rings true in my life.

I said to the man who stood at the Gate of the Year
'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.'
And he replied, 'Go into the darkness, and put your hand into the Hand of God.
That shall be to you better than light, and safer than a known way.'
-M.L. Haskins