Processing

I'm really awake after a crazy day of Duck Pond/broken Dollar Movie movies/Waffle House/a crazy game of NERTS. Yes, our neighbors called the cops on us for being loud while playing cards. I have to admit, we did scream a lot (you understand this if you know the game NERTS) and it was quite comical the rest of the night thinking about what would have happened if they would have cuffed one of us and taken us in for the night just for getting a little zealous with a friendly round of cards. I'm scared to think of what other things our neighbors have heard come out of our house over the course of this year. Oh well, I don't feel too bad because we've definitely called the cops on ALL of our loud neighbors at some point this year, so I figure we're even now.

Anyhoo, Glorieta Spring Break was fantastic. I would have to say it was the best Glo conference I've ever been to... and I've been to 6. I just think it was so pertinent to me right now because God really broke my heart and confirmed that I could possibly spend some more time overseas. Before, my attitude was, "OK God, I'll go wherever You want," but now it's more like, "God, PLEASE let me go overseas!" There are a couple of obstacles standing in my way right now, but God is good and He provides.

But I'm definitely seeing how these really tough situations are turning out for good. God has freed me in many ways and has shown me that I'm set aside for Him alone, and He'll take away anything that gets in the way of that. I want to be on Plan A, meaning I want to walk in obedience and choose to follow Him so that I don't mess up His ideal plan for me. So I've turned around and started praising God for taking some things from me, though it hurt, and I'm completely free from them now. I see the good in it all.

At Glorieta we learned about the persecution our brothers and sisters all over the world go through every single day. And I think it's tough here! I was convicted about letting myself be shut up and not taking advantage of opportunities to make Christ known, because those under persecution are not shutting up at all. I don't want to give up in freedom what they won't give up in persecution! Wow. My God is good and completely worth it. I want to believe that with my life.

And here's another thing. I'm not so sure about this "call" to missions. Jesus already told us to go (Matthew 28:19-20, Acts 1:8, etc) so why do we think that going to the nations is any different than choosing where to spend our lives in the US? Some say that God hasn't broken their heart for the nations. My question is whether you really have a broken heart about the lost. I had to ask myself that question, and if I'd be willing to go anywhere or do anything for the sake of those who do not know Jesus. "The needs of the lost always exceed the needs of the witnesser." Yeah, I would, because Jesus is worth atleast that much, and that's not a lot. Giving up some time, money, a chance to advance in a career, the comforts of American living, etc isn't worthy to take the place of Christ going to the ends of the earth.

I'm sure of these things. I feel like I'm on the cusp of something, and I'm really excited. Praise God for the what He's doing in my life, even through the hard stuff, because it's for a bigger purpose. I couldn't be more content in who I am or what I have. I am more in love with Jesus and looking for ways I can please Him. God showed up during my last spring break as a student at OU and He spoke very clearly to me. I'm sad if you missed out on this conference but know God had you where you are for a great reason.

That's a bunch of random thoughts at 2 in the morning! Night!